Autobiography_ Machnissie Ganah Lovie

It is an echoing backbone history which always click in the four corners of my brain when it comes to recall the struggles and the emotional crisis I went through while still in the stage of BASIC TRUST Vs BASIC MISTRUST (0 – 2 years). The real history was hidden for the thousands of millennium years but on the day when it came out from my mum it turn to hurt my entire journey in the form of an emotional crisis. The unwanted seed was growing in me which is continuously growing today regardless of what environment I am living. The only thing that I use to based on when it comes to writing a life story was from the elementary up to the primary school days, but still my emotion use to click in my brain that there is still an hidden part of the history from the conception up to elementary. I’ve tried my best to approach mum just to ask if she can little bit dig up the roots of my entire emotional crisis, but I didn’t. Although she was my mum whom I could approach without any hesitation, I felt like I can not even unlock my lips for the conversation. 

As I was growing in age the emotional crisis was also growing consecutively at an alarming rate. Everyday when I want to close my eyes to get rest, the thought of I am not part of the family always click in my mind which always follows by an emotional crisis (I feel the spirit of death always control all parts of my body that I can not even speak to anybody, all I have in my brain was the feeling of not part of the family or just even pray to God that He would take my life as soon as possible). I went as far as High school without discovering why I felt that way until on that day on  the 30th September of 2016 the light shine out the darkest part of life which nobody even ever told me. There is a root cause of my emotional struggles which will be trace back to the days in the womb. Anyway read on to know the real person standing at the back of me to push me this far.

I was born in the day in the village as the Bougainville civil war has coming to an end. The difficulties between the PNG National Government  and the ABG had led to civilians ended up making some decisions which affect the way of their living. Though it is painful, the action had to be taken because the life was like in the brick wall where many options had to be taken in order to cut down the load of the hardworking. Anyway going down, when I was in the womb, my mum and dad had decided to get rid of me through the abortion, because there was no service coming from the Government of PNG at that time. There was a great blockage of all the services which the Government of PNG put in place. It was like everyone in the Island were started to invent many things. As if it was a part of lifestyle mum tried many a times to abort me with a bush medicine and even went to the doctor with my dad and signed the agreement for me to kick the bucket in the womb. They didn’t have any expectation for me to be born, for they knew I was removed any how with any of those medicines. After nine months out from the unexpected heart I was born. They were just surprised when mum was in need of immediate medical approach. After a few minutes of unrest, I was welcomed to the beauty of this entire home of tears and pain.

But it didn’t end the whole story, there was another barrier waiting for me while the stages in life was continuing. The hope that I would be free was shaking again. When I was at the age of 3 years once again I ended up at the hospital with my mum and dad on left to right. I had a pneumonia with diarrhoea which was like a seasonal disease because it affected all of who were born on that same date. All my cousin sisters who were in that range of between 2 to 3 years were passed away because the standard of the hospitals were also very low. There at the back of the benches in the hospitals, I was the only one to survive that storm.While growing up, my parents noticed me as a normal as the other kids which at 2005 they enrolled me to Elementary to do my prefatory at the age of unknown. In the afternoon our teacher sent us back home to ask our parents about our date of birth and the given names. Those requirements you would fill for the first day at the school. Next day I came with a Peter as my given name and Pistoi as my Sur name which took me almost three years without any changed. Then it is on that day in 2007 I changed everything and used MACHNISSIE as my given name and LOWIE as my surname, but there was a spelling error in my surname which took me another years till 2013 I correct my surname as LOVIE. Another problem again, they misspelled my given name and submitted to Waigani with a mistake. This time they removed H and E and spelled it as MACNISSI instead of MACHNISSIE. Since it came with a mistake on the certificate I am just continuously writing it as it is. From the passage of general background, below is a summative highlighting some of the facts about me.

Macnissi Ganah is my given name and Lovie as my surname. I’m from Bougainville the Southern part of it  

known as Nagovis District. I come from a family of nine kids with a total of eleven members including my parents.

 I am the fifth one. I was born not in any hospital but just in a village, due to the blockage of service during the civil war. My weight is 63KG and height is 157cm. For mother tongue I know two languages that is Sibe my own language and Kieta language that's from the central part of Bougainville and the third one I can only hear and understand it but cannot speak it is, Siwai language from the Southern part  of it. Apart from the mother tongue I know Tok Pidgin and English.

Currently I am not living with my parents, I used to lived in the church ground and look after the church.  Since the day God called me for His Mission I left my parents spend most of the time outside as missionary and evangelizing to the young youths.

Follow part of my story in other link which is still on editing. You will interested to read more. It is all about how I met the love of my life. Life was not an easy as you might be expecting. I met JUNLYNE CHRIS whom I fall in love with Her and this year 2021 will be a seventh year for us. Our journey to this far is very challenging. Life was very challenging indeed. You will be inspired and sometimes feel like you cannot read anymore but all in all you will find something of worth in the story at the end. Keep up to date on this page for any link to be publish to read this story further.

Picture in Highlights of our Journey 

Educational Background

From the date of my enrollment up till now is quite a long journey of fourteen years. The challenges I went through in life is quite a painful but thank God because out from the circumstances I went through I am the product I am supposed to be today. Below is the brief background of Education Pathway.

Year	Institution	Qualification
2018 to 2021 2018 to 2022 2018 to 2022 2018 to 2023	SOUTHWESTERN ASSEMBLY OF GOD UNIVERSITY(Online) SOUTH WESTERN ASSEMBLY OF GOD UNIVERSITY (Online) SOUTHWESTERN UNIVERSITY (Online Course) DON BOSCO TECHNOGICAL INSTITUTE	Diploma in Office Management Diploma in Business Management Bachelor of Arts in Church Leadership and Church Revitalisation  Bachelor Degree in Technical Education and electronics and communication technology
2016 to 2017	ARAWA SECONDARY SCHOOL	National Certificate of Upper secondary
2014 to 2015	Tonu High School	National certificate of lower Secondary
2008 to 2013	Peile Primary School	Certificate of  Basic Education
2005 to 2007	Sirakatau Elementary School	Certificate of attainment

SWOT Analysis

The most enjoyable part of my life when I discovered the hidden treasures within me. It is more important know the reason of my existence and my skills and the abilities I have inside of me. Like Dr Myles says, the greatest tragedy in life is not death but a life without a purpose. I have to know why I am exist or why God saved me throughout the hard times of challenges. That reason will motivate me to identify my qualities. Below is a list of the qualities and the strengths I have to accomplish my destiny.

Strength

Writing stories from the past in an history from

vTo Evangelize in the Church, to look after the Church

vSocialize with the Youths and be a influence with a Godly character

vLeadership Skills for the extension of God’s Kingdom to perform in any Church organized activity

vPublic speaking

vCarpentry, mainly in designing a local houses and only few with permanent houses.

vComputing Skills for designing any logo or creative graphic drawings.

vCreativity in organizing youths during the camps, evangelical nights, crusades, outreaches and conventions etc.

vPlanning a dramas on the stage performances.

Weaknesses

üOnly good in writing, I cannot speak how I write

üNot good at pronunciation

üSometimes I want somebody to stand beside me in whatever I do

üMany are times I use to left a incomplete house and went away to school

üI am lacking in organizing well when many tasks overloading

üMostly in our local area, I cannot preach the word of God in my own mother tongue. (Only in Tok Pidgin)

Opportunities

qDuring the youth camps, evangelical nights, crusades and conventions

qIn any government organized activities like, Referendum awareness, Opening ceremonies of infrastructures

qMostly all of the opportunities I have it in the Church (Four Square Church)

qWhen given a task by a teacher to write any story

qBack at the home when there is nobody to build a house

qWhen any event is popping up with nobody to design posters, or pamphlets

qWhen we are ask to present any item representing our local churches

Threats

ØCriticism from senior boys

ØChallenging to preach in front of mature congregation

ØCoalition of doctrines when evangelizing in new area

ØNo electricity in our home to continue with any computing task

ØComplain from elders for not given opportunity like me

Sometimes not in the mood of gaining enough confidence to present in front of multitudes.

End

       Regardless of my weaknesses and the threats I always have Belief in myself. Looking forward to complete my destiny. Out from the darkness of my life I’ve learnt many things. As I was encountering hardships in life, I’ve never stopped. I've always eager to learn from my past and gain a new strength to stretch out my wing so that I can fly higher than where I see, beyond what I imagine, throughout the untouched the zone. With the miraculous of new experiences. I feel a weakness but I never confess because if I confess, the weakness might be hear his name and become stronger. I only confess strength during weakness so that I become energetic to stand against the raging storm. I always believe in God though many a times I prayed for Him to take a way my life. It is my stand to live the presence of God than thousands else where. 

“Nothing can separate us from the love of God”  (Rom 8:39)